tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7268005744978949300.post1908580034748173387..comments2023-04-29T03:34:31.312-07:00Comments on scribbles from the ether: Scales and Weigh Ins- A Hate/Hate Relationship Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13151849011637071775noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7268005744978949300.post-2861520378652425802013-06-09T03:48:06.976-07:002013-06-09T03:48:06.976-07:00"I have lost, and if it happened a few weeks ..."I have lost, and if it happened a few weeks in a row, yes I would get concerned. For all the relief that comes with a loss I must impress upon you that I don't chase weight loss............"<br /><br />I get this....It's also a head f*ck when a few little drips of loss are turned back in the 'right' upwards direction - it makes it 10x hard to swallow. I also get stressed if I can remember my exact weight each week. I don't write it down any more - then the whole talk about the 'trends' and things comes in - Sometimes I think it's healthy for my to KNOW it's not going up quickly. but other times I long for the last '10' number again - and the pride of it not being a sharp upward trend too. Like you - I don't chase weight loss but I've been too keen on 'it making life a little easier if it happens' - I've just moved to monthly weigh-in and this is a big step for my recovery and a move from 5 x daily when I was ill, to twice weekly in recovery, to once a week and now 4 weekly -gradually stepping off the scales...!!<br />I guess weight and BMI are a marker for professionals and I know lots of people who work on 'blind' weigh in's the further in to recovery they get - and I will move to this one day - xxSarah Robertsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14221184508059112381noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7268005744978949300.post-67844442242038715062013-05-24T16:30:41.974-07:002013-05-24T16:30:41.974-07:00Ah ruby it's such a vicious cycle isn't it...Ah ruby it's such a vicious cycle isn't it! I too have had the same bench mark in IP settings. I found the lowest possible BMI i could go at and refused to go higher. Now that is stuck in my head and I'm convinced I'd feel seriously like doing something dangerous if i went even a little bit above. It scares me.<br />I'm meant to be 'in recovery' yet a lot of the time I feel so out of control and can't believe how much bigger I am than before last time i went IP.<br />I hope you find the strength to break from the scales, try and imagine the freedom of not having to answer to them and their stupid numbers every day <br />xxxAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13151849011637071775noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7268005744978949300.post-77654529370251456432013-05-24T14:36:16.868-07:002013-05-24T14:36:16.868-07:00Katie I can relate to this so much
Being weighed i...Katie I can relate to this so much<br />Being weighed is the most thrilling and terrifying thing<br />You would think that after years of being weighed by the professionals that it would get easier<br />But if anything it gets harder<br /><br />For the first few years of my illness I was oblivious to my weight<br />I didn't weigh myself and didn't want to<br />It was only when doctors started weighing me that I began to take notice<br />The number seemed important to them so it became important to me<br /><br />When I was in IP, life revolved around being weighed<br />They said it wasn't about the weight but really it was<br />I became so hung up on my weight that once I reached a certain number I couldn't go any further<br /><br />Having had a relapse recently I have started weighing myself every day<br />That number dictates my mood for the day, my self worth and self esteem<br />I hate that it does but it does<br />I would rather not know the number and yet I have to know<br />And it's never enough<br />It's never good enough<br />Never<br /><br />I hope you can continue to live scale free<br />I hope I can too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.com